Time with Jesus

So the other night I was feeling lonely. My room mate has moved out, so I live in a big house by myself. The holidays just ended, so I'm not getting to enjoy the company of my family. i could go on and on about the different reasons I've been feeling lonely lately. Thankfully I was journaling/praying during my quiet time and what do you know Jesus hit a home run!

I've always valued time spent with others. I'm a people person as most of you know. I like being around people all the time, I like learning about other people, I like to invest my time in others. I know I consider it such a blessing whenever I get to spend time with my friends! The time my friends spend with me I consider extremely valuable. Well, in the midst of my complaining that I wanted someone to spend time with. God said "Why don't you spend time with me?" Wow, let me tell you I lost my breath I felt so bad... All the time Jesus is knocking on the door offering, here I am, spend time with me, enjoy me...

Do you know how ever so often you look at the Bible next to your bed and say, oh i'll get to it later as you rush out the door to go meet a friend for dinner... Well God has really convicted me on this one. I shouldn't let him be second priority...

Do you ever feel like I don't want to get into it because I know with my thinking that it will end up taking hours and I only have half an hour right now... I get so mad at myself - why do I worry about that... Cause when I do open God's living word - wow, he always speaks straight to my heart! Who cares if I spend hours communing with Jesus - Nothing in this world is more important than the trinity! I mean Jesus did give the ultimate sacrifice - he gave his life for me so that I can SPEND TIME WITH GOD!!!!

Am I hitting any chords here?

Well, this loneliness isn't there anymore. When I get home to my empty house I just go sit down with my favorite book and let the Holy Spirit meet with me...

SUNNY!!!

So I look outside the window, and I'm so lucky God gave me eyes to see!! I love witnessing the sun play on the buildings and the dancing shadows!~

God is so good! I've been asking Him to come and fill my heart so that I might be able to love my neighbors unconditionally. And God just puts this joy in me that makes me just love everything around me! He is faithful when he says in one of my favorite verses:

Isaiah 40:31
"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint!"

Don't you just love God's optimism! He is ALL we need!!!

I know I've been sad plenty of times, but I look back on it and wonder why I didn't just remember all the MILLIONS of blessings God gives me EACH and EVERY day! I've been disappointed recently, and I'm just mad at myself for letting some little unsubstantial things bother me! God calls us to be hopeful! I have just been praying that God will keep my love for humanity and my passion for others to be renewed and remain a faithful servant and witness for the Lord. I have the most amazing friends a girl could ask for. Not to mention God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit NEVER disappoint us! It's so easy to look at todays society and become disenchanted, but we just have to remember how WONDERFUL heaven will be once we get there! God gives us pain so that we can grow to love all the blessings he gives us that much more! I mean if Jesus' glory was realized in all his sufferings, why won't our pain become something great?

Sometimes we can get so tunnel visioned on the negatives that it completely affects who we are! But we should be stronger than that! One thing God has shown me is that we can't let our standards be compromised! Stand Firm in Him! Do not be moved! Keep your joy! Keep your childlike WONDER at the world!

Here is a little verse I got to enjoy last night during my quiet time with Jesus, the romancer of my soul!

Psalm 84 (New International Version)

1 How lovely is your dwelling place, O LORD Almighty!

2 My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the LORD; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.

3 Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may have her young—a place near your altar, O LORD Almighty, my King and my God.

4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you.

5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage.

6 As they pass through the Valley of Baca, they make it a place of springs; the autumn rains also cover it with pools.

7 They go from strength to strength, till each appears before God in Zion.

8 Hear my prayer, O LORD God Almighty; listen to me, O God of Jacob.

9 Look upon our shield, O God; look with favor on your anointed one.

10 Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.

12 O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you.

Much love to you all!!!